Life, the Universe and the Melancholic

I thought perhaps doing another introduction blog post. My name is Léyanie. I had a mental breakdown in 2019. April 8th 2019. Almost exactly 2 years ago. I have 6 children, all with additional needs. My partner and I have been together for 23 years. Our relationship has always had its challenges, and continues to do so. He has complex chronic medical conditions that have severely impacted his ability to function. I'm struggling to come to terms with becoming his carer and him dying at an early age. We are both 40. The prospect of becoming a single mother is daunting. With the added complexity of my mental Illness, the thought alone can trigger my anxiety and eventuate into a full blown panic attack.  I have my mental health self care tool box. Music, walks, podcasts, audiobooks, time with friends and family. I have a guilty obsession for astrology. I went to art school, but never graduated. I'm a terrible artist frankly. I'm even worse now,having had years of absolutely no ...